This consoled me for a while and I focused on nothing but surviving. It’s a well known fact that in birth, women shut down to their primal brain, and all their higher functions of reasoning switch off. This makes entire sense to me. Because as I went through this experience, all I could focus on was survival. My body was doing everything it could to SURVIVE. Why would it need the higher thought of reason when the whole body is convulsing from within to expel this creature which has now reached the point where it is sucking the life out of it’s Mother, rather than her ‘supporting’ it? The baby can’t stay in there forever. And the body knows that.
The birth once it begins has to reach it’s conclusion. And the person inside that body is totally encompassed by it’s motions, that they can only accept the pain and go with it and try not to fight it. If you fight the pain, the body clamps up even more and the pain gets even stronger. We have to accept the labour pain for it to go away faster. How counterintuitive is that! Even when everything within you is telling you that this pain is wrong. Because in every other bodily experience, if we feel pain, it IS because something is terribly wrong.
It makes sense to me that pain is a fitting result of our rejection of God in the garden of Eden. Our response to God’s rule and authority is totally wrong, and consequently, pain now exists in his creation. And more intensely so in birth; the very act of his creatures creating! Creation itself is stuffed from our sin. And no more do I feel this truth than in the process of my babies’ births. And moreover, how fitting that I experience this trauma than on Easter Friday and Saturday. The days we set apart to mourn for our sin and the depths our Saviour Lord Jesus went through to release us of it.
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